A tad depressed.

Maybe it is my menstruel cycle, maybe its my emotions... who knows?
I feel sad. I feel left out, and I feel hopeless. I feel like maybe I won't go to Disney for my birthday. Maybe its a waste if i go. Maybe I am wasting money and everyone's elses for soemthing that I want to do. My heart feels sad... should I change it? I really don't want to, but I don't know =[. I feel lonely, like for some reason no one wants to hang out with me, and people do not care about me anymore. Other people and friends are better, so everyone can forget about me. I kind of feel sad I will not be seeing my family tomorrow... I'll my mom/sis too. I feel hopeless in love. Nobody wants Christina... not men, friends, or Disney. I feel fat and ugly... and I need to take a gym class, save me.
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