Godney?

So I was talking to a close friend of mine tonight. She was upset, and I was listening to her. I tend to have a nomadic mind, so as she started to get sad I would try and talk about random things. While talking about random things, I got on the topic of myself. I have no self esteem. I feel like I don't even know how to survive in the world. I have no confidence, and I never take a compliment. I hate how I am, and I would like to change. I do not know how to change. I feel like I need a life coach, therapist, or like hypnotist. Now I know my title doesn't make much sense to the entry, so I'll explain that.

A lot of people do not really understand my love/obsession for Britney Spears. I'm not really sure how to explain it... When I listen to her, I feel like another person. I feel like a sexy "Brave New Girl." (haha clever I know :p) So at times when I am feeling more self loathing than normal, what am I suppose to do? Drink myself? No... Cut myself? No... Sleep with random men? No.. Turn to drugs? NO! I turn to Britney. I truly feel Britney is an angel. She has gone through so much, and is such a sweet heart, I don't know how anyone could ever hate her. She may not write EVERY SINGLE song, but she sings them with heart. When she sings, and talks... I just connect with her. I know I sound crazy, I'm not. I have always loved Madonna, and I am always going to love Britney. Britney went through everything, she knows how everyone feels. I adore her so much, I would be heart broken if something ever happened.

Now I obviously love God, Britney will never take the place of my God... but she is a goddess! And an angel! So therefore... Godney<3 I am going to keep listening to her and trying to feel better. Why else do I play her non stop? She makes me feel sane, free, sexy, and just... everything.

I love you, Britney <3 Thank you for being my idol <3