Hmmm.

You know, sometimes not having a relationship, or just not having anyone to talk to kills me. I like a kid in my class, he is so cute, not like I would ever have a chance with him. Look at me, a nothing, who would want something with a nothing? Then there are other time I ignore my own emotions and look on the "bright" side. Maybe it is a good thing I do not have a relationship, that way I can never get hurt. I'll never have to go through a heart break. Others will and I can just pity them. I may have my curiosity, but I guess I'll be okay on my own.

I mean sure :( I would love to have a boyfriend and do cute things with. Maybe go to a nice classy restaurant, go to the beach, go horse back riding, and just spend time with, but maybe I don't need it. Maybe everything is wishful thinking. Everything in this world is tempting, including relationships. So in the end am I making myself stronger by being alone? I wish I were not, but what can I do? Nothing. Nothing will ever come to me. Maybe love is overrated... not like I would know =[.

I can't take it anymore. If I did not look like the way I did then maybe love would be more open to me. I hate you Christina, I hate you....
Till next time.