So I guess when it comes down to it..

I have no worth in life. I am not really good at anything. I am not good at spelling, I am not good at math, I am not beautiful, and I am not in shape. At the end of the day I have no one to come home. Sure I have a beautiful loving family, but I do not have a boyfriend to go to. I have no one, I am alone. I'm not sure how much longer I can deal with being alone. I have no loving man who will listen to my problems and just hug me and tell me it will get better. I am not good at enduring things, I am not good at driving, I have a bad temper. Is there anything about me that is good? No, not that I know of anyway. When it comes down to it, I will never live my dreams. Even if by some miracle I did write a book, no one would buy it. It would sit on a shelf all alone, just like me actually. I'm sick of being positive, It has not gotten be anywehre. I'm sick of life, I'm sick of fucking up. I can't do anything right. why? why me? Why did God even bother to make me, all I do is mess things up. I hate it. I love you God, why won't you help me :'( Why is this life I am living causing me such misery. I'm all alone and nobody understands. This month is horrible, I have destroyed two things, and I'm sure much much more. I want to crawl into a hole and die.

I do not have a purpose in life. I'm not good at anything to even have a purpose. If everything God creates is beautiful, then why did he make me? Was he experimenting? I love you God, please help me :'( Nobody likes me, all I do is annoy people. I can't deal with it. Everyone has someone to go to, I don't. why. WHY. It makes me wonder why people with such talent have to pass away at such an early age and not me. Michael Jackson for example, a legend, someone with so much meaning, I'd rather he be alive then me.

I feel so sad. Everything annoys me, and all I do is annoy, I guess it brings balance?
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