You can reverse a car, but you can't reverse...

AGE.

oh my god, I'm having a mid life crisis at ALMOST 19. Age is a horrible thing. With getting older brings so many horrible things. It brings countless responsibilities, maturity, work, and worst of all DEATH. Why do people have to grow old and die? I shouldn't be thinking of this right now, but reality is hitting me for an awful half hour. Every day we live a day is a day we get closer to dying. This is a horrible way of looking at life, but right now I can't help it.

With getting old there is so much more responsibility. People need to get jobs, raise families, and so much more. Life is to short to do all of this!!! I try to never think about it, but right now it is hitting me.

I do not want to die alone, I do not want to die without accomplishing my goals, I do not want to die hated, but most of all I do not want to die=[[[!!! I know we all have to, but why? Science is so advanced why can't they do something? No matter how much plastic surgery a person can get, cannot change what life has in store for them.

Death scares me so much. Death can happen at any time, oh my god I hate thinking about it. When I do die, I hope its something really cool like I saved a person's life so I know they can go on living life. When that uneventful day comes I better have accomplished some things.

Death is sad :( I do not want to loose my mom or my dad, or my sister. Or my friends! I can't handle it. I'm not mature enough to deal with death :( I do not want to be alone, if I lost one of them now I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I cant imagine not having my best friends besides me. Or my mom and dad, they're my angels :( My angels on earth, I do not want them to leave me any time soon. Same thing with my sister and friends. I just do not understand when life got so complicated. When? how did 18 years of my life go by me so fast.

I'm not ready to grow up, I'm not mature enough, I'm also not brave enough. Now that I got that all out, I actually feel somewhat better. Now I can go to sleep without having to much on my brain.